People always say that they want a quiet environment to feel peaceful. But at most times it's a quiet environment that makes your mind wonder more wildly. This can be explained using the theory of relativity, where similarly tell us that beauty only exist because of ugly, happiness only exist because of sadness and wisdom only exist only because stupidity.
The same thing goes for our mind. We have a lot of problems in life. The time when we are really at peace is actually the things around us are in chaos. Sounds like nonsense? Not at all. When we are in a very grave condition, our mind focuses on the thing around us. We don't have many thoughts because our mind are working hard at the moment to face the current situation. But notice this: whenever we sat down and have nothing to do, or the fact that the things you are doing is not too important that it won't form a strong enough attraction for your mind, you end up thinking about a lot more things than you do during chaos. You think about your future, your desires or even sometimes flashes of thoughts which bring no meaning but still annoying all the same.
The night is a time when you mind run wilder than the rest of the time in a day. Sometimes you can't sleep, like I am now, and you find yourself sitting in front of your laptop reading people's posts on facebook without really taking in what they're posting. Your mind's running wild with all the problems you face recently and you don't really want to disturb your friends who is online at that moment. Or worse there's some problem you can't simply talk to anyone about but you wonder whether trying to access the problem or the person directly will make the situations better or worse.
You think about all the possibilities. You think about the moves you should take. You think about other live examples you have witnessed in your life. You think about whether it's worth it. Then you can't stop thinking about it anyway. All that can haunt you during the time which is the most peaceful. Because the peace outside actually helps to let you know how much trouble you have inside.
Wise people says that a kind heart recognizes no enemy, wisdom recognizes no worry. But if I were a wise person then surely I will either solve it without trouble or won't bother to feel worry.
But in this depth of night, my heart's yearning is even clearer and louder, like a giant bell sounded in silence. The missing I have sounds like thunder in my mind, hoping that someone would hear it.
Run wild! Run free! Carry my thoughts and care like a slow, cool breeze. Into the dream of it's master who is always missed. Go!
Midnight, that's when my mind run wild.
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